I keep wondering if creating nude art is an addiction that is keeping me from connecting to myself…

Or…

IS it the connection to my self?

There is an external result that I enjoy from sharing my images – the love and appreciation I receive from you.

It does something for me.

And it seems that Scorpio of all the signs has something going on about getting approval from outside themselves.

Maybe that’s it.

Nevertheless, there is something else much deeper that I receive from within as I write and create nude art.

It’s much harder to define.

It sort of feels like coming home to myself and finding that I’m OK.

Mixed in with that there are some judgments that keep bouncing up.

Stuff such as: You’re being ridiculous, You’re not a model, You’re not a writer, What the hell is wrong with you, Why can’t you just be happy with a “normal” life, No one wants to hear what you have to say, No one wants to see you naked…and if they do there’s something wrong with them, Why must you go down paths that are unacceptable to all the standards you’ve been taught,…etc.

And then I have to be still and ask…

If all judgment were dropped.

All judgment…all SELF judgment…

Who would I be?

For one thing, I wouldn’t be tortured by my mind.

Which brings an interesting perspective doesn’t it?

The pain and torture that we feel is always created in our minds.

Unless we’re captives of a savage tribe and being stuck with cactus thorns which are the lit on fire…

And then you’re probably not reading this because you’ve obviously got other things on your mind.

I hope you get safely away soon so you can get back to my post!

But seriously…

Let’s just stop torturing ourselves, shall we?

It’s really not all that difficult!